Mmmm pretzels

I randomly decided I wanted to make pretzels. So I did. It took ages and I didn't even start until almost 8 PM! I JUST finished 2.5 hours later but I really think it was worth it.
I used this recipe.
I love that website.
I already ate one and OMG it was delicious. :) I can't wait to try a cinnamon one tomorrow.
Pics or it didn't happen!






Cinnamon!

I only made four cinnamon and the rest are just butter with a little salt. I don't have the big chunky salt so regular will do.

Gooooooooooooooooooooooood stuff. :)

No I'm not high, thank you.

All my life I have gotten strangers telling me I look tired. Thank you! How nice of you. Most of the time when they ask this I had a wonderful amount of sleep! It's because of my dumb eyes. That simple. Ever since probably middle school or so I have been asked by many people if I am currently high. Many of them refuse to believe when I say no! I am not high! I was even asked recently when I was working at a local store by a guy that worked there. How can I take this as anything but an insult? Especially when I have never done any sort of drug and proud of it. And all based on what? My droopy/baggy eyes and my calmer/mellow nature? That's just me.

Sorry for that short rant there. I was just thinking about this and how much it bothers me. I didn't choose the way I look and I hate that it automatically makes people make all these assumptions about me.

I want my brain to calm down because I can't seem to relax tonight. I think it's because Isaac went to bed earlier today and I didn't get a chance to talk to him. Since it's pretty much part of my daily schedule to talk to him every night I think part of me is still expecting that and won't rest until I get a chance. It has been a long night and it's only 10.

Oh our water heater is leaking (again, it has done this before) and luckily I caught onto it before it got as bad as last time. Last time it happened it got a huge area of our living room all wet and pretty much ruined the carpet. This time I happened to walk by the area to get to a closet and felt a little dampness. Ugh. So no hot water for now.

I have been so lazy these last couple of days. Partly because I have just been not feeling well and also because... well I don't really have an excuse. I have been just pondering things more than anything and snuggling up to stay warm. I need sun and a nice walk. I also need Isaac...

I think I'm going to maybe watch tv or something. I wonder if anything is even on...

I'm ok but I have a painful hangnail

Happy 24th Birthday Isaac!

I ended up getting about 2 hours of sleep the night that I posted my last blog. Wasn't nice. I made it through work at least.
I can tell that I'm coming down with a cold and it really sucks. I feel kind of crappy because of that but I know the worse has yet to come!

I also really wanted to thank the kind people out there who helped by chipping in. It means a lot to us. You all know who you are. :)

Please, PLEASE, just let me sleep.

For a couple months now I will have many many random nights where I will be fine BEFORE bed but as soon as I try to sleep I start feeling a bit nauseous. I will try to ignore it and fall asleep but many times, the feeling of falling asleep makes me burst out of bed thinking I'm going to throw up... but I never do.
It normally just takes a few tries and I will fall asleep and wake up fine as though the nausea never happened.
But not tonight.
Tonight I was only able to sleep for about 30 minutes (at most!) and other than that, I've been just tossing and turning and constantly feeling like I'm about to barf. I got some water and an emergency bowl just in case but I really don't know if I will throw up. Now I'm sitting here and my stomach hurts but it's not the same as when I try falling asleep. I've been trying since 10! It's 2:48 now and I need to wake up in about 3 hours (at the latest) to go to work.
This really sucks.
Really really sucks.
I don't know what it is but come on I would like it to go away and I really would like some sleep.
I got tired of just lying there and jumping up every time my head starts to finally doze off so I came on here.
I am freezing right now too! Our house is so cold. I can't stay warm but EVERY time I bundle up just right and start to relax even a little, I just end up quickly getting up again feeling like I'm going to throw up!
I'm even trying sleeping sitting up which normally works but it isn't this time.
The night before I have to work pretty early. Go figure.

3 yrs on YT, tired + thank you

Worried about Peter...

Peter really scared me. I was in tears because I already really love that budgie...
So he was out of his cage and on my arm and then he suddenly decided he felt like flying. His wings are clipped so when he tries to fly he doesn't get very far and he hasn't quite mastered... landing.
So he landed hard. I don't know exactly HOW he landed but I looked at him right after and he had his wings out and was kind of on his chest.
I freaked out and quickly tried to help him up.... but he wouldn't stand up. He seems to be lying on his chest. There he was in my hand being really weird and scaring the crap out of me looking like he was struggling to get up but he couldn't seem to be able to! Next thing you know, he stands in my hand. Then he shook out his feathers and acted as though nothing happened. He began to even look like he was about to fly again but I couldn't let him do that so I lightly clasped my hand over his wings. After a moment of trying to observe him (he seemed like his normal self) I decided to put him back in his cage. He seems normal now but you can never be sure...
I put a blanket on part of his cage and keep checking in and he is acting completely like nothing ever happened. I'm scared though! According to my book, loss of balance and inability to get up could be a sign of a concussion.
I really love this guy. He's so young too. I really hope he's ok!
Something tells me I will have a hard time sleeping tonight. I'm going to be checking in on him a lot.

Money money money....

It's hard not to think about it right now.
Isaac and I may have to end up sacrificing seeing each other AT ALL in 2009. I keep thinking about this and we have all the immigration fees to pay for and then the actual marriage (even if we get married in the simplest way) and then saving up for being able to actually leave my parents' house. How do we include travel into this?
I already miss him. Even though I get to talk to him on webcam almost EVERY DAY I still miss him. It's hard when you are restricted to just sitting at the computer and you can't do stuff together. I could try taking my laptop on a walk but that wouldn't be very fun.
I'm trying so hard to just remove the idea of buying anything for fun at all in 2009. I will try to only buy what I NEED because I can't see how anything will work out otherwise. BTW, dollar store FTW.
Long distance relationships are expensive.

AND the British Pound is no longer worth as much more than the US dollar than is used to be! It was at one point almost TWICE as much but he sent me 200 pounds recently and it only was 280something/290 or so. Can you believe it??

I would seriously be able to deal with being basically penniless if Isaac lived here with me now. Think of how easy it would be! But I shouldn't think that way. We have what we have and we will get through it some how. It's just going to be very hard...