Wednesday, July 23, 2008


So someone ranted about how I shouldn't ask for a couple days off to go camping. Um yeah I should. We don't even have set weekly schedules where I work and sometimes I have a couple days off in a row anyways. I was opening with the manager that makes the schedules and she asked if I had a request for next week's schedule and I told her I would like a couple days off to go camping. She said ok and now I can go camping so yay me. That was easy.
I'm glad I have today off. Lindsay and I might see The Dark Knight tonight. Don't worry Isaac, we are still going to get to see each other tonight too.
Picture time.

My sewing machine.

Piles of fabric. You can't see all of it in here, some is behind the others.

Random owl.

Cute owl feetssieeessss.

I don't even know what that it. It was sewn by hand though.

Apron made by panel.... I wanted a cheesy christmas apron so yay!

Apron made in time of R.A.o.A. (Random Acts of Apron). I just cut out fabric and sewn it together and this is the result. That is my apron face.

Cheyenne and I ate Blizzards the other night. Yum. The end.

Oh and my greatest sewing creation yet is something I can't even show you guys. It's Lindsay's birthday gift and since I don't want to spoil the surprise you guys will have to wait until end of september/beginning of October to see it. It's cool though. Bye.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Dead man walking

I am not used to working so many days in a row. 6 days, working every morning. I know many people do it and are used to it for the most part but I don't know if I can be. Not now anyways. I still need to even out fun with work. I am hoping that the week after this week I will have two days off in a row so I can take my niece camping before it's too late. I can ask for the time off I just don't know how, honestly. I'm weird like that. I'm more comfortable just letting them schedule me whenever and working around that. I can't explain why.
I should really be sleeping right now because every morning this week I have regretted staying up late. Ok, that's it. After I type this I WILL go to sleep. I will. MELODY DO IT!
I don't even know what to say. I have some pictures to post but I wanted to take another of my apron thing before putting any up.
I want to have a chance to sew. And paint. And CLEAN. Fuck, I need to clean.
This is the first summer I have HAD to do something. Never school, never had a job during the summer. Weird. It was strange when I saw some people with a boat and forgot what it was like to have a real summer. I miss that.

Oh so I never told you guys how much I loved Looking For Alaska by John Green. And FYI, I didn't like both of John Green's books (Looking for Alaska and An Abundance of Katherines) just because OMG he's on YouTube or something. That may be what made me check them out to begin with but the thing that kept me interested was his amazing ability to pull me in. I normally drift off when reading books but with these I was so into it! I caught myself laughing out loud some times. I was even in TEARS when reading Alaska. That's a new one for me.
Another book I just read was The Queen of Everything by Deb Caletti. That was pretty good too though a bit predictable. Oh well, I really enjoyed it.


Friday, July 18, 2008

Ooh ahh visionary.

1. Music is weird. I mean it's weird how a song can be full of memories, even memories of things very insignificant. For me, certain Bowie albums bring up a whole set of memories from the time I got each one and would listen to whatever was the newest over and over. His Reality album brings me right back to being in my bedroom right before starting my junior year. I had just gone shopping (Old Navy mostly, I think) with my mom for school clothes. I saw Reality in a store and told my mom how it was his newest album and I only knew one song off of it. Anyways, I then went home and popped in the CD thinking about how different his old-man voice is since I only had a few of his other albums at the time. It began to get cloudy out as I put together my outfits for the first days of school. That's how I always was. I would plan my outfits down to exactly what days I would wear them for the first week. I would even have dreams that I accidentally wore the wrong outfit on the wrong day and it messed up my whole school year. ANYWAYS... I remember one outfit was a pink layered v-neck tshirt, a jean skirt, and these clunkyish shoes. Basically an outfit I would never choose now. After showing my mom and having her tell me it was cute, I went back inside and at that time it began to hail... hard. I remember listening to Bowie belt out his songs as I thought about how gloomy it looked outside. It was one of those days where it looked like it could be sweater weather but was actually warm enough to swim in.
So yeah.

2. I was pissed off today. Very pissed. So I have had a long week. Working, sleeping, working, sleeping. Today after work I decided to stop by this awesomely priced clothing store by my work. I thought a little clothes looking might clear my mind, it sometimes does. I didn't really plan on buying anything other than work pants if they had any that would work (they didn't but I DID buy a shirt). So as I am trying on these shirts there was one I really liked but thought another size would be better. So I go in my hunt to find the other size. The thing about this place is that you can go to your size and just shuffle through the stuff but it's not organized so it takes work. Well as I am looking I kept seeing this little girl down the isle pulling on shirts. She was pulling on those things like she was expecting some candy to come out if she pulled hard enough. Her mother was looking at clothes and turned to look at her daughter but never did anything about her pulling on the shirts. These things were ready to fucking rip! So as I get closer to them and am watching this girl I see her start to pull a price tag. I could see that any second the plastic tag thing could easily rip right through the sleeve. Since I was now standing right next to this child, I just politely said to the child, "You shouldn't pull on that..."
Well this kid acted as though I just said, "I'm going to kill you and your whole family. Oh, and your little dog too! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" She just freaked out and hid behind her mom. He mother turned to me and gave me this stare of death. She then said something like "What??" and I said "Sorry she was pulling on that shirt pretty hard..." and then the lady very rudely said some shit in spanish of which I could not understand but don't know if I want to and then said, "If you have a problem with her then tell me! You are not her mother!" I sincerely apologized a little shocked at her reaction. I now wished I would have mentioned that she does not own the clothing and should not allow her little fucking brat to just ruin everything. Anyways the lady turned her head around to the clothes again and then back to me a second later to give another death stare. Fuck her and those death stares. The whole time her little darling girl kept acting as though I had a gun or something. She kept trying to hide from me. Every time I moved a step, she moved a little further. I leaned down a bit and tried to put on a happy face to say sorry to the kid but she ran off again. I didn't want to scare some kid! I wasn't doing it for that bitch-mom, I felt bad for actually scaring the kid!
I didn't want to stay there any longer so I bought the shirt and got in my car. I don't know if I have ever started up my car and left so quickly before, even when running late for something. When I finally got back on the road I just had this burst and screamed out, "FUCK YOU BITCH!" I wasn't really expecting myself to sound so loud and angry. It actually SCARED me! I spent the next minute trying to figure out how I could get so loud/angry sounding.
I am sure some people could brush this off. And maybe there is some unwritten law I don't know about that says you can't ask another person's kid to stop doing something stupid. I sure as hell wouldn't give a shit if someone told my future child to stop doing something they shouldn't do! Unless they yelled at them or cussed or didn't something out of line, wtf?

3. I got my sewing machine on monday and have only sewn 2 aprons so far. One from a panel and one from the brain. The machine was an early birthday present to myself and I am not regretting that purchase one bit! It's a great machine. Brother XL 2600. I did a bit of research before buying it so I knew it would be ok. Especially for that price!

The end. Pictures some day.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Beep bop boop!

My mom has this really old sewing machine which is connected to the table meaning I am stuck in the laundry room if I want to use it. I also need to get her help every time because it's so confusing. It's old, as I said. Sure, it may be pretty good and heavy duty but gahh I just wanted my own sewing machine I can figure out on my own. Soooo I ordered one on the other night. I looked through a bunch and read reviews and this was one of the top rated and lowest in price. When I get it, I will go sew crazy. I'm excited. I have a bunch of projects lined up that I am waiting to do on my own machine.
I also ordered a swimming suit from this site a while back and got a call saying I should be getting it today. No, you guys won't be seeing it. I'm hoping it works. It's not easy for a "curvy" girl to find a swimming suit that actually fits without things falling out here and there or being too loose in the stomach area. I was a little iffy about the prices at first but then I went to this swimming suit place and a million stores and the only one/s that worked for me and were the style I liked we like $130. No shit. Not doing that.
I am about to go to the book store to check out craft books and stuff like that. Bye.

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Yay pretty.

So I bought this thing and I wanted to pretty it up. I am going to use it to store some of my sewing shit. I am not completely finished with it. There are some things I wanted to touch up and then spray it with a glossy finishing spray. I was originally going to paint labels on the drawers but will instead make them on paper or something and just stick those on. I didn't want anything permanent. If you can't quite tell, that is not white it is actually silver so it is a bit metallic.


Both sides are about like this:
The top was the part that took the most work and time. I can't believe how patient I was with myself.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Things to do

I need to figure out how to live my life and stay sane while working. I'm not used to having a job anymore, and have never had a job that I actually WORK at. I mean, Toys R Us hardly gave me any hours. Some weeks I had less than 8 hours, no joke.
Money is good though. I have the money to support my hobbies but now need time for those hobbies. On my days off I end up doing things like chores or hanging out with friends in stead of the things I am craving.
Like painting.
I just bought 3 canvases and have ideas of what to fill all three with.
I also bought a wooden crate-like 3 drawer unfinished thingy which I have ideas on how to paint. It will store my sewing stuff.
Which leads me to how I want to be able to sew. I have all these ideas and all this fabric but have only started one bag.
I also wanted to cover that thing the rat/squirrel/whatever chewed through in my car with a fancy fabric. It will be a cheap and quick way to cover it. I need to clean my car inside and out too. It still has the pieces from that rat/thing incident lying around.
I feel there was other stuff I wanted to do. Oh yeah, yoga. I want the time to be able to just chill and do that. Oh and listen to music. I recently went to an antique mall and bought 2 new records. One T.Rex and one of the Mamas and the Papas. I haven't had a chance to fully listen to both.

I just remembered a list of other stuff I need to do to sort out my life and keep me sane. yay!

Isaac said wang.