Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Saleisha ANTM Cycle 9 Winner..

I was very bored by cycle 9, especially after they got rid of the interesting people. But not only was I bored, I was VERY disappointed with the winner (that Saleisha chick... yeah, who?).
Well check this out... more reasons to be angry:

America's Next Top Nerd

I like to take pictures when I'm bored, ok. The bathroom tends to be my "studio" since it has the best lighting at night, is private, and has a small portion of a light colored plain wall. Meh. Sophisticated! And so are these GORGEOUS pictures... :) :) Oh yes, I'm a professional. Thank you.


Monday, April 28, 2008


So here was my original post with pictures and all...

And here is how to make them...

It's a .pdf in case you couldn't figure that out so it might take a while to load for some of you.
I realized I never linked to that on the original post. Oops!

BTW, obviously the instructions have a much better looking donut. I couldn't quite get the hot glue thing to work because I have a small crafting hot glue gun.

Sunday, April 27, 2008


I'm not really sure what the craze is all about but....

Friday, April 25, 2008


People I am subscribed to in order they appear on my YouTube subscription list:

You guys probably already know who this is. If not, check him out. His videos are actually getting him roles in indie films now or something. He does re-enactment videos. I think he's great.
Mellomel was one of the first people to ever really talk to me on YouTube. We don't talk anymore but I still watch his videos from time to time. He is a very nice man.
Morbeck Morbeck Morbeck. I am not sure what to say about this guy. We used to talk on Stickam and stuff and I would find his videos hilarious.. but lately I haven't been amused by his videos more like concerned. What's going on with him anyways? Oh well, I will stay subscribed.
One of the first vloggers I saw on YouTube. Though I didn't see him until after I started, he was doing it before me. Of course. Anyways, I just find him interesting. BTW, I am one of the (what seems like) few people that can pronounce his channel name. He explains it in one video.

When I first saw "LittleLoca" I was a little afraid of the possibility of her talking about me on a video. But soon I just found her interesting and kind of funny so I didn't really care anymore. Then of course there was the whole thing of "Is LittleLoca an actress??" But some reason as soon as it was revealed to be an act, I just loved it even more. I mean, that was the second character I saw on YouTube (first being emokid21ohio) and I just thought it was wonderful.
She's my friend. Lindsay. Hello, of course I am subscribed. She was just with me an hour ago or so watching Michael Jackson.
I think his videos are hilarious! But not so family friendly, of course. And he's weird. That's always good. Plus he always seemed pretty nice on Stickam.
"Omg is this the same girl that does LittleLoca?? No way!" Yeah I don't know if I really need to explain anymore.
He's weird and makes weird little weird weird 3d experimental videos or something. Haha weird.
Come on! It's PimplyWimp! I think his videos are very well done and he's just so funny. After he asked me to do part of the YouTube: The Movie thing I knew he was a nice guy. After meeting him in person, this was just validated. Ryan was such an awkwardly weird guy and just really nice.

She's such a sweetheart and I really enjoy watching her videos. And that's all I have to say. VK Out.

I was really interested in what he had to say. He started some weight loss vlogging thing but some reason after he started that, he has pretty much stopped making videos. Just adding one every few YEARS (well, it feels like it anyways).

Very enjoyable videos and personality. Not really sure what else to say really. Just like her videos.

I found him after his violetkitty411 impression. It was so perfect! He's just weird and I don't know if you can tell but weirdness is just something I like to subscribe to.
TheWineKone's second account. Naturally had to subscribe, duh.
Ysabellabrave just has such a sweet personality and I adore watching her videos. This is just her "talking" channel, obviously, but I love the way she approaches the things she talks about.

Um another Stevie account. I love the old fashioned videos, she just does them so well!
And Stevie's 4th and final (I believe, who knows?) account. I love the videos she puts on this one! HILARIOUS! oh and I might as well take this time to say that Stevie, as a person, is also really cool. We haven't talked in ages but meeting her and the time I spent there in LA was great thanks to her. I will always have great memories of Disneyland and stuff. It was my first time there, after all. What better first could it have been?

Freakin' weird youngins. BTW, Lucas used to stalk my Stickam pretty much. Psh stalker. Jk. Kind of. They just make carefree videos. Reminds me of the home videos that would be made before youtube. Just so silly and fun.
When I think of her I honestly think of the words "hi" and "sorry". She just says sorry way too much! But her videos are great.
I just think this character is really funny! I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY!
Someone sent me her website,, a long time ago. When I found out she was uploading her videos onto YouTube I just had to subscribe. WTF?? I just noticed her account is closed and her website just says she is on hiatus. AHH SHE CAN'T DO THIS TO US!!
I think they are pretty funny. I wouldn't have known about them if they didn't do the short lived Online Nation with Stevie. They sent me this one CD of theirs and I think it is hilarious. I also love how they don't think they have to be vulgar to be funny.
I love her singing voice and her videos. 'Nuff said.
Such a nice and strong guy. Check out his art! And his videos always seem to get me thinking. I know that not everyone with his condition would be brave enough to put themselves out there for the world. Heck, not even I feel brave enough for the YouTube world sometimes. But I'm glad he is putting videos up and opening up to us.
I just think he's fun to watch. Yep. I am getting tired of typing. I think I will now make them all short. Yes.

She was on ANTM. I love ANTM. Put it together.
Fun character. Always interesting.
Funny guy! I normally don't care about the "news" of celebrities but he makes it fun! Pull shapes.
OMG his personality is great. I actually laugh out loud a lot with his videos. He's just so fun to watch.
DaxFlame's extra channel. I don't know why. It's Dax.
Though I didn't like it at first I became addicted. Now I can't stop watching but always end up wanting the whole thing to just finally get an ending already!
LG15 dude.
LG15 dude. A different one.
What the buck's more personal channel. You get to see the more human side of him.
I don't know. Funny stuff sometimes?
Her videos make me happy.
I actually find the "boring vlogging" side of "Brookers" to be more entertaining than the "Brookers" brookers. Dunno why.

The man behind "Zipster08". Great guy.
I love her older ghetto living series. Oh and yes I find fart jokes to be funny! Fart. Poop.
Have you SEEN this guy's work? How can you not like it? It's crazy!
SteAndKel are obviously just great. I don't know how people could not like their personalities. They are the perfect team. It's kind of like one of those tv shows where you see some people you think would be a good couple and you just keep waiting for them to finally get together. "We're just friends!" Whatever.
Spice Girls.
Creatively done videos. I love this bloke.
My friend Jen. like actual friend. Check her out.
I got a friend request from her on MySpace and that's when I first saw her videos. If you haven't watched them, you should. She is brilliant!
They all seem like fun girls. I don't think you need to like Harry Potter to like them. They started the "fiveawesome".
For the times I feel like getting away from the vlogging and funny videos and just want to learn something. I guess.
It's Isaac. The love of my life. How could I not subscribe. He has made a couple videoblogs so check them out!
This guy has the best Bowie/Lennon/everything impressions. He sings the stuff himself too and it's just great.
Another real-life friend, Amy.
Isaac and I. Isaac and Melody. IseAndMel vs. SteAndKel.
This project interested me. Haven't seen any videos lately.
"Lindsay Lohan" got me hooked. I don't know what it is but I love the videos.
Used to watch her on LV when she would blog there. I think she's just so real or something.
OMG just so funny Jimone!

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Naked vlogging?

I will be making a naked vlog tomorrow for the naked vlog "campaign". Wait... NO I'M NOT. And why do they call it a campaign? What exactly are you campaigning? Attention?
Seriously people. Think about it. What is the point of naked vlogging? If this person, whoever the person is that started this, never started this and someone was to vlog naked, what would you think? You would probably think they just wanted attention, right? So why is it suddenly acceptable just because some of the more "popular" people on youtube are doing it?

At least other tags, like the 5 facts thing, were INTERESTING and actually had a point.


I kind of feel ill. Ugh. But being me, I have to spend this time on the computer. BUT luckily since this IS a laptop, I can still lie on this here bed here here. I don't know why I'm talking so weird. Well not so much talking more of just typing weird. Ahh. Anyways, I hope it wasn't the fact that my mom and I shared one of these:
Well she hasn't eaten her half yet but I ate mine. I don't know why it would make me sick but you never know, right? Ugh I have a headache. And now thinking about eating that is making me feel kind of weird.
Now I am just waiting for Isaac to get online so I can complain about how I don't feel well. I have been such a complainer lately. Ahhhh nah I will try not to.

In this search for a job I just don't know what to do. I just need some little simple thing. It can be in retail I just don't want to have to try to push some store credit card or something so that narrows down a bunch of places I don't want to work. It seems as though all the coolest places to work are little shops they aren't hiring. Lucky betches. I want to work in a little weird record store or something. I think that would be cool. Maybe not? How would I know? I don't. But I have bad judgment. I thought Toys R Us would have been cool. It's not like I was expecting to play with toys there but I thought that the environment would make people there happier and funner to be around but it seems to do the opposite. Save your soul and don't work there. Because of Toys R Sucks, I am assuming that every store would be absolute hell to work in. It's funny because I thought that over time I would get used to it and it would just seem like part of my life - going to work at TRU - but really every day I went to work there it felt like my first day and like everyone was stressed about everything. It just sucked the life out of me, I felt. The days I had off were spent thinking about how I would have to go back to work the next day and wander around the store aimlessly trying to avoid management because even if I WAS doing everything right AND with a smile on my face, I was just glared at or yelled at on the headset walkie talkie things. Maybe there were a couple fun or just not so horrible times but I hardly remember them in the mess of the crap. The day and couple weeks after quitting were the best days I had in many months, I believe. It's possible that I made the experience worse by not looking on the bright side of things or at least talking to more co workers, but I really did talk to some of them and found plenty to be nice but MOST of the nice ones broke down and quit soon after starting. Hmm.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

I don't like fish.

I hate shopping for clothes. T-shirts are easy to shop for. Everything else? Not so much. At least when you're a 5'2" or something chubby chick. I'm not tall or big enough for plus sizes but not small enough for the other clothes. I already know juniors clothing, though I like some, is not a good place to shop if you have any thighs or hips because all pants are for curveless girls. And as for shirts, don't expect to get a cute nice top if you have boobs because they are all too small in the boobie section. And then if I go to any other section, like for "petite" or "misses" or whatever all those other sections are, the clothes are almost too mature and big and hell just most look like shit. I just want nice clothes. Not expensive, but nice. I am sick of t-shirts and jeans all the time. Sorry this is just stressing me out.
I went out today with my mom because I need to get a job and don't have anything nice to wear to interviews. So we were out for HOURS and I FINALLY found 1 shirt. ONE FREAKING TOP. I mean, it's a pretty good one and it was on sale but to go out for HOURS and have it be the ONLY thing that worked? We went from store to store and from section to section, some sections we went back to more than once.
I want candy.

I had a dentist appointment today, just for a regular cleaning thing. I hadn't gone in about 2 years (oops) and I was so afraid to go! Normally when I went it would seem as though they would find something bad about my teeth (like the start of a cavity) because I have pretty "groovy" teeth. Not wicked cool teeth but there are a lot of grooves in my back choppers. So yeah, stuff would get stuck back there. But I have had pretty much all of them filled so they aren't as groovy and this time at the dentist they just said my teeth were looking excellent.
But I still don't like going to the dentist. I don't like them poking and scraping at my teeth and gums. And I don't like that gritty stuff they put all over your teeth. I don't know what it is. And I just feel uncomfortable lying there with my mouth wide open.
They make you wear funny sunglasses at mine. To protect your eyes from the light they shine in your face.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Anxiety attacks are exhausting.

HDohoihodih IH oifh!

I just wish I could hide and paint. I know it sounds cheesy and like the typical "wannabe artist"... but I AM a typical wannabe artist, I'm sure.
But that's not the point. I really do have the urge to just hide in this room and paint a whole bunch of stuff. Not care about anything else I may have to do or care about making a mess with the paint.
It's not as though I believe I'm an amazing artist... I JUST LIKE TO PAINT AND WANT TO DO IT NOW! I WANT A GOLDEN EGG NOW!

That would be nice.

I want chocolate. I will have hot chocolate after typing this.

MrPregnant is annoyingly funny.

Itchity quack quack snookie snoooooo!!

There is no point to this blog.

Oh, I have been wanting a good yoga DVD or something. I took yoga once and liked it but wish I could do it at home on my own. Only problem is I forgot most of what we did in there plus I want to do MORE. So if there is a small chance that someone that happens to come by my blog knows of a really good yoga DVD, would you PLEASE let me know? I don't want some crap thing.

This room smells like oil paints.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Going green?

First off, I got the adapter for my laptop so I can use it again, yay!

Second I was just wondering something about this going green thing. Ok it's great and all and it's good that so many companies and people are into it... but how many of these celebrities (and/or just regular people) that walk around in shirts saying "SAVE THE EARTH, GO GREEN" or whatever REALLY care? How many of them actually do something about this other than just buying clothing or saying some phrase? I see so many people that promote going green but they hardly mention what they are doing to do their part. Do they just see it as a trend or some way to make them APPEAR to be a better person?

On a completely different note...
Tyra Banks.

Ok well it can almost be related because in the last cycle she kept promoting "going green" but really this isn't about that.
If you know me, which I doubt you (whoever you may be) do unless you are Isaac or someone.... though I don't know who reads this other than him...
If you know me you probably know I am obsessed with ANTM and love to watch the Tyra show. I find Tyra Banks to be hilarious in some weird way and also just get so into ANTM. But one thing just bugs the crap out of me about Tyra. Not literally because that would be weird and gross. But she just seems to act as though she knows and understands every thing. She tries to be a psychologist way too often. Come on woman, just because you host a show it doesn't mean you are some god of it. If I could meet her, I gladly would. I am sure she might be down to earth in person but the image she gives off on TV seems to be so self absorbed. If ever there is someone having a hard time, she seems to have to find a moment to mention when SHE went through a hard time just like it/oh so much worse and ignores that they are sad NOW and don't need to hear your sob stories.

As for America's Next Top Model, I want either Lauren, Anya, or Katarzyna to win. Mostly Lauren because well, duh. I can't stand Dominique and I don't like her look. Fatima isn't interesting and she doesn't look unique at all. Whitney bugs me and AGAIN doesn't look any different than a million people I have seen before and I doubt they would let her win anyways (plus size for those non-viewers). I normally don't judge people on their looks (who am I to judge, right?) but you can't hate me for it here, it IS a modeling competition. But then again I bet they will choose someone I don't really care for. What was with last cycle? Saleisha Stowers being the winner? She was so plain and I've seen her a million times before (not HER but people that look like her). And damn why did they have to give her that haircut?

ENOUGH with this ranting. Goodnight.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

"Ask... Me... Things...." Answers

About a year ago I made a video telling people they could ask me whatever. I don't really like answering the questions in videos because I tend to go on and on with the answers or don't know what to say. Instead, I will answer some questions here. I don't even remember which ones I've already answered in a video... so sorry if there are repeats.

Have you ever met Mr Jones himself ? I've met him twice !!
Well Johnny, GOOD FOR YOU! [Enter jealousy here] I have not met David Bowie (Jones is his birth last name, for those wondering) and doubt I ever will. I haven't even been close!

I just thought of another question. Have you ever made a video that you were too embarrassed to post on YT or LV?
YES. Oh goodness yes.

David Bowie with his "old" teeth or David Bowie with his "new" teeth? I like him with his "old" set of teeth...
His old teeth gave him more character. I liked them a lot! His new ones are almost too straight and weird. I believe he should go get his old choppers back! I wonder if Iman made him do it...

Ever traveled anywhere besides Los Angeles?
Yes. But never left the US. I've been to Oregon, Washington, all over California (though LA was my first time in SOUTHERN California), Colorado, and Nevada. I think that's it. I was born in California.

Where were you 9/11/01?
I was home getting ready for school, I think. And then when I went to school that day everyone was talking about it and I was so confused. I didn't even know what the world trade centers were! I was 13 years old.

Ever been in an earthquake, flood, or other natural disaster?
Not that I know of. Oregon seems to not get any of that stuff or at least not that bad.

What would you do with $10,000?
1) Buy a new computer. 2) Give some to Isaac for him to come here and then use some to go THERE. 3) MOVE OUT. The rest would basically be saved and used for things money is used for. Ha. I'm selfish.

At this point in your existence, are you in a, "Oh, I want to find a guy to be the love of my life" phase or are you in the, "Oh, I just wanna buddy to go to the movies/ beach/concert with who will just giggle if I shove my ice cream cone in his face on a wild impulse" phase?
BOTH!!! How could I think a guy was the love of my life if we didn't have crazy fun together? I've got both!

Are you a member of
No. I hear that right now, since Bowie isn't really even USING it, it isn't much better than a normal message board. I'm not spending money for that! I will stick with BowieWonderWorld, thank you.

If you could have a career as an actress, film director, painter/artist, or web designer. Which would you choose?
If I was a great artist and was able to live off of it I would DEFINITELY choose artist. I suck at acting/directing and don't have the confidence. Buut it looks like the only realistic thing would be web designer, but I don't know how much of an interest in that I have. Oh gosh, but if you are talking DREAM I would go with artist.

Long Distance Relationships


Since I currently can't use my own laptop and it IS more comfortable to sit at a desk I am using my dad's computer. And some reason when my web cam is plugged into my dad's computer, it is impossible to get the colors and contrast to look NORMAL. I tried a million settings and decided to just go with crazy brightness and stuff. When I finally get to use it on my own computer again I will be able to make normal colored videos. Yay!

Speaking of that darn computer

Even though I currently can't use my laptop it doesn't mean I can't personalize it. So I got out paper, markers, and tape and this was the result. The three butterflies were stickers I already had on there but everything else was added today.
I had a mug on the desk in front of the bottom right corner of the computer so I had no idea what time it is. Wow, I should get to bed soon.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Made meself a shirt

So last night I remembered I had to sew a button back onto this one top I had. BUT instead of doing that, I instead got out this huge XL mens shirt my dad gave me (he got it for free and figured I could use it for PJs or crafts or something) and started working on it. I didn't know what I was doing because I've never made a shirt before and didn't look up how to do it... just started doing it.
I am quite proud of my finished result. I mean, it's pretty good for someone who has never done this before and didn't have ANY instruction, right? Oh yeah, and it was sewn completely by hand too. The only part that was already done for me was the hem on the bottom...

This last one was a better picture for showing the bunching up in the front, the only problem is it looked as though I was trying to show off cleavage... >_<
As for the back, it's pretty simple. It has those buttons by the straps on the back too though.

My mom had no idea I did it and when she came home from shopping she asks when I got it. I told her I made it and she thought I was joking at first.

In other "news":
My laptop, though cleared of viruses and trojans (yes, someone shoved some condoms up in it's hard drive), is currently non-usable. The AC adapter had some little crack in it or something and for a while in order to get it to work I would just move it around and twist it until it did. That no longer is an option. I just ordered another one. It's a good thing I at least have my dad's computer. I just wish I could order a new BATTERY (the one I have only lasts 11 minutes, if even that) but those things are "hella" pricey. Dang. If I had over $630 I could easily buy a new laptop (already looked into this) but I don't even have $4. Seriously, yo. Oh well, some day I will get the money.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008


I am in love with AVG Free Edition now. THANK YOU AVG. My laptop is SAVED. :) :) :)
This thing might actually live on! EEEEH!

That is all.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Dollar store shades

Hello world. Well the wedding was here and is gone. Jennifer and Johnathan would now be in Disneyland for their honeymoon. Fun stuff.
I bought these sunglasses at the dollar store and think I am cool now. YES, I AM COOL NOW because I spent 1 dolla on eyeball protection. I'm Michael Jackson.
Oh and here are us bridesmaids in our dresses.

Now that all of that is over, it's kind of like a relief. It wasn't my wedding or anything but it was still a little stressful. Jen looked gorgeous and her mom was crying like crazy during the wedding.
The funny thing is, the next day I was hanging out with Lindsay and Amanda and for a second I thought, "Hmm, should we call Jen to see if she can hang out with us?" Haha then I remembered she would be on the road on the way to DL being all married and shit. :)

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Songs that remind me of being a kid...

I was just going through some songs that make me think of any time from the past. Most were just songs that were popular on the radio or something. When I was younger I just listened to whatever. I have weird memories listening to them all, ahh!

Haha Janet Jackson. I would include "All For You" too but I'm going to try to just put one video per artist up.

Of course I had to include this!!

Along with other old Green Day stuff...

And the OTHER Will Smith stuff, of course! Gettin' Jiggy Wit It!

I was in love with 3LW in middle school. Weird. Oh and all of the REAL music videos had embedding disabled, so this is all I could do. Damn copyright laws.

Again with the good videos being non-embeddable. Well it is the video just not in synch. HAHA Christina Aguilera.


I have strange memories of being in my room with my little white stereo doing absolutely nothing. That and rollerblading around my neighborhood to this song along with others (I had a little portable radio thing I brought with me).

Ahh ok sorry about all the videos, I was taking a wild ride "down memory lane". As you might be able to see, it took a while for me to build my own musical taste.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Bitter? Shmitter...

I have received a few comments from people saying I have gotten bitter.
Sure, I have changed in the last year or two but it's not that I've gotten bitter! I AM a happier person and I AM starting to realize more of who I am and what I want in life (credit for this does NOT go to YT, credit goes to growing up and falling in love, etc.)
Things have always bugged me and just because I mention them or complain about these things openly it doesn't mean I'm any angrier with the world than before. Maybe the world's perception of who BOWIECHICK really is is the thing that is changing. Maybe the world is seeing a little more Melody and a little less of the internet persona.
I am not going to feel bad about this because I know that it isn't me, it is just how these people are viewing me.

On another and perhaps a little more cheerful note:
AMANDA COMES TOMORROW! I am picking her up from the airport tomorrow and then later we are going to Jen's bachelorette party (hen night for those who would be less American than I). Don't worry, it won't be some drunk slutty night like the typical stupid ones you may or may not know of.
I am STILL confused about some details of this wedding. I will probably be confused through out the whole wedding, I'm sure. Oh well, I will just follow my fellow bridesmaids mindlessly and look pretty.
Our dresses aren't ugly, yay!


Dumb parents. Dumb kids.
Ok something else is pissing me off now.
It's about that whole thing with the 8 mentally impaired beating up that girl in Florida.
Now I am not going to rant about how stupid those kids are...
I am annoyed with the PARENTS.
They are STUPID enough to put the blame on websites.
Are you SERIOUS?
If these kids weren't stupid, they wouldn't have done this. You can't blame some websites.
I am just sick of parents blaming myspace or youtube for something that happens to their kids.
Just like if there is a shooting at a school, you can't say schools are the anti-Christ and should be shut down. IT'S THE PEOPLE THAT ARE CAUSING PROBLEMS AND EVEN IF THEY DIDN'T HAVE ACCESS TO THE INTERNET THEY ARE STILL GOING TO BE JUST AS MORONIC!

That is all.
Maybe soon I will make a happy blog.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

2 New Videos

I guess I've had one of those days where I just felt like making videos... so I made two.

Thought of the idea for this video when I was having one of those late night wishes that I had more hours in my day... especially when I'm having a great day with someone like Isaac.

Though it looks like most people caught on, there were some people who have failed to notice my sarcasm. This isn't really ME TALKING. Well it is me, and those words are coming out of my mouth... BUT IT'S A JOKE. I am making fun of the girls (and guys) who constantly stress on you subscribing and commenting as if it's all that matters in life. These females also will sometimes show plenty of cleavage in their quest for subscribers. Sad.

So there you have it. Two new videos in one day.

I better get off the computer now before my brain a'splodes.

Youtube is my life?

Over these two years on YouTube I have received countless comments and messages saying that I should get a life and stop spending all of my time on YouTube. They basically assume YouTube is ALL I do. Yet they favorite and rave about some of the more "popular" youtubers. You know, the YTers that end up with 100+ comments within the first 30 minutes of posting a video.
In some ways, I feel they are almost right because I DO spend a lot of time on there...
These YouTubers they idolize seem to have seriously dropped their old life and are
I'm not just making this up, I have come to this conclusion by all of their blogs/myspaces/etc I have seen. It's like all they can talk about is YouTube. All of their friends are other more popular YouTubers. They fly from all over for youtube gatherings and to be in each other's videos.
It's kind of depressing for me to see because YouTube is just a little part of my life and for these people it seems to be all that they have. That would make me feel empty.
Just felt like saying this. Thank you blog readers (if there are any) for listening.

Monday, April 7, 2008

Not deleting...

Just had a moment. Don't worry.

Sunday, April 6, 2008


I have an urge to delete myself from the internet.
A hater did not bring this on, life has.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Pregnant man?

I don't understand why this story is such a big deal to so many people and why it's so hard for them to grasp.
Someone who was BORN A FEMALE who STILL HAS FEMALE REPRODUCTIVE ORGANS yet has "trans"formed into a male is pregnant. Not hard. Still has the female reproductive organs!
Gosh. I just don't understand why it's such a big deal.
Sure, it looks weird to see someone who appears male to be pregnant...
But once ftm transgendered is thrown in there, it makes perfect sense.
Get over it.
Also, I have seen people that are worried that the T might totally screw up the child.
If you watch the interview on Oprah, he stopped taking it long before pregnancy. I doubt he OR the doctors would be so stupid as to let him keep taking it during this time.
That is all.
Although they do live in Bend, Oregon so it's almost local.

Lemon yoplait is yummy.

There is a stack of textbooks I need to sell. Yippee.
How come it seems as though the only days people randomly stop by and want to do something are the days you decided NOT to do ANYTHING and to just chill in pjs all day? Seriously, it always happens to me. I'm just chillin' in my pjs and the doorbell rings. And then it seems as though all the days I am up and ready and in the mood to do something, no one comes over and no one answers their phones. Ah the world hates me! :)
Why the heck is some weird ceramic bird on an ashtray staring at me?

Thursday, April 3, 2008


I would like to apologize for this survey overload... this is my last, I promise (for today anyways..)

A fact about the person you like?

I love Isaac.

What happened @ 10:00 AM today?
I was probably JUST rolling out of bed.

When did you last cry?
I'm not sure if I remember. It could have been a few days ago actually.

What do you want in your life right now?
I want Isaac to be within driving distance from me, if not WALKING distance.

Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No. Although it is something that has been borrowed from me a bunch of times by Celsie. She actually had it for MONTHS.

What is the last thing someone bought you?
My mom bought me some... personal clothing items.

Where did you last eat?
In my kitchen.

Will you ever kiss the last person you kissed again?
Oh hell yes.

Who's the most annoying person in your life?
Don't know. Or if I do know, no comment.

Do you plan on moving in the next year?
I actually do plan on moving out within this next year or soon after.

What were you doing @ 8:30 PM last Friday night?
Umm... I don't even remember! AHH!

What are you thinking of right now?
The answer to this question.

Honestly, how many people have you been in love with?
One. Isaac.

What did you do today?
I cleaned my car, inside and out. And talked to Isaac. And that's basically how "productive" my day was. Though cleaning my car was very good for me to do because it has been bugging me and the windows weren't good at all. And talking to Isaac is always nice.
Do you have a job?
Not yet. Trying to get one soon.

What are you doing right now besides this survey?
Nothing else. I am actually just doing this, which is weird. I normally have something else going on.

Who took your profile picture?
This is about MySpace, since this IS a MySpace Survey. Answer is: Me. Self portrait.

What is your current problem?
I am wasting time doing this, and that's a problem.

Laid in someone else's bed today?
Have not.

Last time you spoke to the person you like?
You mean love? Um, about 30 minutes to an hour or so ago.

What are you looking forward to in the next week?
Well in EXACTLY a week, Amanda will be coming. I'm so excited to see her! And in ABOUT a week is Jen's wedding. OH and my bridesmaid dress will be done being altered on Monday so I can pick it up. I'm pretty excited to show some people how it looks on me since it actually is very pretty looking. :)

Have you ever had your heart broken?
At the time I thought it was a broken heart but it really wasn't that bad. Just a little scratch.

Who was the last person you saw?
SAW, Isaac. Saw in person would be Mom.

What was the last movie you watched?
Autism The Musical. It's a documentary. It's pretty interesting.

Who is the last person you freaked out on?
I don't know!

Where did you last go?
Dutch Bros. because I had this thing for a FREE drink of whatever size.

Do you like someone right now?
I LOVE someone right now, and like him.

Why did your parents give you the name you have?
No idea. But I honestly like it.

Who was the last person you yelled at?
Maybe my dog Daisy because she wouldn't stop barking at nothing.

Do you regret anything that you have done?
Yes, but I try not to let it bother me. Especially when it can't be undone.

What is something you say when you are mad?
It depends on what KIND of mad. I might cuss and groan or I might not say anything at all.

Have you ever cried when you're mad?
Yes. I cry easily.

Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
I wish Isaac was still physically WITH me right now instead of 5000 miles away.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away?

Is someone in love with you?
Yes, this one person. His name is Isaac, I may have mentioned him before.

Is there someone you know you should hate, but you can't?
No, I don't believe I SHOULD hate anyone. There are some people out there I could care less about but really, why bother letting them interrupt your happy life by thinking about them?

Do you like someone as more than a friend right now?
Of course. He is a friend and much much more.

Have you ever lost anybody close to you?
No. Wait, yes. Binky the cat. I don't know if I will ever have a cat as good and fat as her again.

Is there anyone you trust even though you shouldn't?

Ever liked someone that wasn't good for you?
I have LIKED stupid guys that definitely weren't good for me, but I didn't realize until I got to know them.

The last song you listened to?
I can't remember what song it was but it was Edie Brickell in my car. Yes, she was sitting in my back seat singing to me.

If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
I don't want to.

What color is the chair you are sitting on?
Black. Some reason when I first read it I thought it said "what color is the HAIR you are sitting on?" and I thought "WTF??"

Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
On the phone.

Do you currently want to scream at the top of your lungs?
No, it sounds painful right now.

Are you named after a grandparent?

Favorite Pop-Tart flavor?
Anything chocolaty. Like the fudge ones... :)

Do you know anyone in jail/prison?

Do you like the color green?

Ever driven into the ghetto to buy drugs?
Oh yes, I just got back from doing that! Just kidding, no.

Do you hate someone?
Nah. There are people I really don't like though.

Last voice mail you received?
I think it was either from Jen or Lindsay. I don't know now.

Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
Some worthless person. Who cares.

Have you ever been on your school's track team?

What jewelry are you wearing?

If all your friends were going on a road trip, would you go?
Probably! Depends on where and how much I would have to pay though. I currently have about 3 dollars.

Do you swear at your parents?
No, not at them or in front of them. I might behind their backs, of course. That's how we do.

Is your phone right beside you?
My cell is in my purse which actually IS right beside me. I also have a phone on the desk in front of me.

Is there something bothering you?
I need to use the little girls' room before I wet myself. >_<

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Isaac should be sleeping by now (considering it IS about 6 AM) but he COULD be dreaming about me. :) Other than that, nah.

Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
No, unless they are high top converse or something.

What is the color of your bed sheets?
White and black.

Are you happy at this very second?
I am a pretty happy person generally, at least lately (even though I am naturally not so happy LOOKING... I blame my face and believe the only time I can look happy is if something makes me laugh... I am also pretty calm so I'm not one of those perky happy people, just happy. Okay, end parentheses...). But right now I am more just content with everything. Not to say anything has brought me DOWN from the happy state, I am just not really on the extreme end of it. I am blabbing now. The end.

Where do you spend most of your time at?
At home. I could lie and say I spend most of my time being all wicked cool at some place with friends but as I said, it would be lying. I am at home most of the time. Whether that means on the computer, sleeping, walking around aimlessly, or whatever... I am just home.

Typical survey - because I can.

1) Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?

2) Have you ever been punched by the opposite sex?

3) Do you like Jack and Coke?
Never had.

4) Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with an A?

5) What is the nicest thing you own that’s not a vehicle?
Umm... I'm honestly not sure. It depends on the definition of "nice". Does nicest mean the thing that's worth the most... in money terms... or nicest as in most valuable to me? Either way, really don't know. I suck at these survey things.

6) You're at a friend's to watch a movie, and you get to choose the movie genre:
Right now I could go for some horror. Most horror IS cheesy and unoriginal but I still enjoy it immensely. Too bad a lot of my friends seem to dislike it.

7) Can you cook harder things then spaghetti, pancakes, and macaroni and cheese?
Yes I can, if I am given the opportunity. But in my house, I honestly hardly ever COOK things. I am sure I will a whole bunch once I move out.

8) What is your favorite game system?
Well they are all pretty rad to me. I do enjoy playing DDR on my sister's PS2 and they now own rock band so I am very excited to "babysit" and play that (still haven't). OMG OMG OMG! I haven't played on any of the newer systems. Wii's look pretty fun because I'm all for games that involve more than pushing some buttons. I own a DS and think Mario is wicked cool. I sometimes like to go back to my Nintendo 64 and play Mario Kart or something with my nephew.

9) Do you know anyone that is currently locked up?
No. Wait, lie. I forgot I have Isaac locked up in that cage in my basement. Oops, haven't fed him in a few days... or cleaned his cage.

10) Have you ever had a threesome?
No thanks.

11) If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
With Isaac. In his cage. Poor guy must be lonely down there!

12) What is your favorite chocolate bar?
*drool* Uuuhusihdasd! I love so many. GIVE ME CHOCOLATE BETCH!!!

13) Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

14) Have you ever had a best friend pass away?
No, and don't like the thought.

15) Have you ever been in trouble with the police?
Have not. Clean record. Don't even have a parking ticket or anything... Oh no now that I've said that I'm going to get pulled over TOMORROW or something, huh?

16) When you eat a starburst do you eat the red and pink ones first?
No, I just eat them in the order they are in the package. Mm, I like to chew them a little first and stick them to the roof of my mouth. I don't know why, but I do. Those things are delicious to me. Candy is one of my weaknesses.

17) Do you tend to think logically or listen to your heart?
Both, I believe. Sometimes I do think too much about facts and stuff instead of just listening to my heart.

18) What was the worst thing that happened to you today?
Nothing that bad happened to me today, so I'm not going to bring myself down and try to search for some little thing to dwell on.

19) Have you ever changed your looks to impress other people?
When I was younger I would TRY to.

20) Do you think that you’re a good person?
I try to be a good person. I'm not one of those people that doesn't seem to give a shit about how they treat the world.

21) Have you ever gotten into a drunken fight?
Never been drunk so that is impossible.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008


Staring at the computer screen. I should be doing things.