Cuppycake gumdrops

I love cupcakes.

I made dinner again tonight. I made this so if you ever want to try something different but simple, there you go. I thought it was pretty good. I didn't take a picture though. Oh btw, someone asked if I made the french toast in that one picture and yes I did.

I love the smell of fresh lemons. That meal doesn't have a strong lemon flavor though, btw.

Oh now I want lemonade.

I get to open the gift from Isaac in the morning! YAY!

I need to clean my room. Bye!

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY* ISAAC!!! I love you.
*If you are the type of person who thinks of marriage when you think of anniversary, like I am, I want to clear that it is not a wedding anniversary but a relationship anniversary. There you go.

What up duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuude

Having a year off of working (though I did go to school a little bit and stuff) really made me lazy man! I mean, before I would have been ok with working 4 days in a row (though I would have HATED it since one day at Toys R Us was more than enough) but my legs and back just hurt so much. Cutting fabric involves me being a little bit slumped over the table and that is killer. I was so excited to be able to completely relax today though. I slept in until almost 10 and most of that sleep was wonderful. I then woke up and slowly made my way to the TV and watched the Tyra show and then continued with laziness. It was nice.
Anyways I must say that this place is probably 1000000X better than Toys R Us was and I really don't mind 8 hour shifts at all here. I am just a little tired afterwards but that's it. Yaya!

Ok so Isaac and I celebrate our 1 year on Sunday weeeee! I have this box in my room with a gift from him but I can't open it yet so I don't know what it is. He gave me a hint but I can't figure it out so I just have to wait. Eeeeeh!!!! He already knows what I got him but he can't open it yet either. :)

I WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT IS!!!!!

Looking through a glass onion

What bugs me about when people comment on blogs is that I don't have a way of replying that they would see. I don't know. So I will say a couple things here:

" Martyn said...

Is it really T.J. Maxx in the US? - or was that a typo?

My nearest one in the UK is T.K. Maxx!

Would be weird if it was different! :)"

Isaac and I talked about this. It really IS T.J. Maxx here. It is the same though! Here's a quote from it's Wikipedia page: "T.K. Maxx is a chain of off-price department stores in the United Kingdom and Ireland. The company is part of the TJX Companies which also owns other department store companies such as T.J. Maxx."
It's weird that they would bother having a difference in names, especially one so slight. Oh well.


And...

"samantha said...

geez id hate to live in america with your not so great wages!
i live in australia and atm im on $18something an hour and i am in desperate need of a pay rise! gr gr"

18 aussie dollars an hour? That seems like a lot to me. Maybe most of it goes to vegemite or something? Sorry, lame joke. Anyways, what are taxes and stuff like?



ANYWAYS, I need to go get ready for work.
Byes.

2 photos

Scary makeup, yayyyyy!

At work.

Pesto Pasta w/Chicken

I made dinner tonight...

French toast w/ Strawberries

One of my favorites for breakfast. Mmm! It was yummy.

Lazy rainy day.

I think I was dead today. Really. I woke up quite early and spent most of the day watching TV. I don't do this often. Maybe more than those "TV is so not cool - I'm too good for television" types of people but really not often. I just chilled in my sweat pants and indulged in Little House on the Prairie. That's right!
I eventually made it to my room where I continued to be lazy. Started with a little cam chatting with Isaac (which, btw, Skype keeps dropping our calls randomly... PSH!) then I watched a million videos.
It was a rainy day today anyways so it was perfect to be lazy.
I called in work this morning because I got a message from the manager yesterday. Some lady was pregnant and left without warning so I am taking her shifts next week. This means I have 32 hours next week on Monday through Thursday. Considering Monday is going to have a big sale, I am a little freaked out. I'm NEW and still having problems trying to figure some stuff out. I can't even remember how to clock in! And they are going to be expecting me to do all of this new stuff when a whole bunch of people will be there for the sale. Ah! Nervous! But I should be getting some good money for that week alone. Thank God for Oregon's minimum wage being pretty good. $7.95 now. Isn't that higher than most states? Washington has the highest.

Ok I don't know what I'm talking about anymore.

Oh I saw these pretty rockin' zebra striped dishes in T.J. Maxx yesterday. They were those squarish types of plates and stuff. Ah I loved them. I am just drawn to black and white stuff. I want them, rawr.

Listen to me, don't listen to me. Talk to me, don't talk to me.

I had my first day/training today. That was the longest 6 hours I've had in a LONG time. The weird part is the whole time I felt like I was just in this dream or something. Not a wonderful rainbow and butterflies dream but one of those dreams where all of this stuff is happening and you're just confused. So much new stuff being thrown at me here and there it's hard to take it all in. I just felt weird the whole time. When I got out, I realized my heel hurt from my shoe rubbing some skin off, I was starving, and I was extremely tired. It's weird how it didn't hit me until it was time for me to leave. I learned how to cut fabric and stuff and watched videos but not much else interesting. There was still just so much little stuff to learn. At least the customers today seemed pretty patient with me and the co-workers all seem pretty nice.. so far.
Now I am talking to Isaac. It's great being able to come home to someone you can tell every detail to and they will just be there for you. He is now lip synching to Weird Al. Haha, nerd. :) I love him.
I don't know when I work next but I guess I go tomorrow (I think) because I was told that the schedule would be up. I am not sure though. Ahhh! Too much to take in in one dayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
I'm exhausted. I should get used to it eventually.
It's weird, I don't really remember how I was my first days at Toys R Us. But then again I always felt new.

Enough about that.

But yeah now you guys know how my day went. Good for you.

I think I might wait to get my haircut until I get my first paycheck or something like that. Depends on how much money I get on my first one.

Right. See ya.

Fun?

I mentioned a "fun thing" I was going to do today. Yeah, bummed out. It was a school carnival at some elementary school. I used to go to this carnival thing every year. I went but it wasn't really that fun this time.. at all.

The reason is that I went with people that weren't really open to the fun that it could be. They are kids but one assumes she is too old to do anything child-like. She's only 11/12 or something, I think. And the other is her younger sister who is a little shy and seems to just do what her older sister will do (nothing?). She finally did do some stuff... SOME. And the youngest of course would do plenty of stuff but she's only 3 so she is VERY slow (not mentally, I mean a slow walker/doer) and pretty bratty. She wants her way with everything.
Anyways.

Last time I went I went with Cheyenne. I know she would be a blast because we always have fun together. I think we both see how fun it could be instead of expecting the fun to just fall on our laps. She would have gone with me instead but she was busy.

At least when I got home after walking in the heat with a three year old in my arms Isaac was online and we played virtual pool and darts together on MySpace. That was fun. Oh and a little Mad Gab.

I should be congratulated for putting sunblock on all over every day for a few days now. I normally forget and I burn easily. I rather be pale than tan anyways. Tan is so over rated. Besides, it's not like I tan properly. As I said, I burn. And if I do tan a little it will happen to be when wearing pants so only my arms/chest/face get tanned while my legs stay white. Right now they are about the same pale-ness so that makes me happy.

I still need a haircut but it's not really that high on my list of priorities right now.

Interview tomorrow.

We had a pretty late dinner. I think I ate at about 9:30ish. Oh man, I was really hungry by then. But the problem with eating late is now I feel like I should have a few more hours of my night but it's already 10:30. Whoopdie doo!

*Yawn-o*

I have an interview for this one retail crafty place on Sunday, so wish me luck people. NOW!

Yesterday and today were so hot. Stupid heat. It's fine if it was summer but it's NOT summer yet. Give me a break. 97-103 degrees (about)? Man, man.

I really don't have anything to say.

Oh tomorrow I'm going to do something very fun. But I can't say what because anyone could track me down if I did. So I'm now. But it should be fun. I've always loved... this... thing... and I am excited to go again.

There's an annoying little fly thing in my room.

Cloverfield was weird.

Bye.

Wannabe

I have chronic writer's block. I think I might have been born with it. It really does suck. In school we would be given an assignment to write a short essay or story about something. I would just sit there trying to think of something and.... the result was nothing. I would look around the room and notice that every other person would already have a page written and there I was with a blank page (well, minus the little doodles on the side). By the time I would get something written it would be late and not even any good. The thing is, this would be fine if I had NO interest in writing. The problem is... I do.
I remember when I was younger I would get out paper and just sit there trying to think of some epic story to write. I would end up putting away the blank paper and pencil soon after. And then for years I would write some stupid homemade "newsletter" for my friends. The thing this newsletter lacked was news. I recently found a couple of those old newsletters and most of the "articles" were me asking people to help me write stuff for it (which, btw, no one EVER did within my 3-4 years of trying this out).
Wannabe writer could be a term for what I am but I think that even "wannabe writers" write better than I do. I know I'm a wannabe artist though. I have all of the painting supplies and the interest in painting but when it comes to actually painting... it hardly ever works out with me. I must admit, some stuff isn't HORRIBLE, but I really am a little embarrassed. Maybe I'm just a critic.
What else am I a wannabe of? Well there is a musician or singer. I can NOT sing (seriously, just trust me on this one) so I am left with musician. But.. I seem to even have a problem tapping my foot to a beat. I have plenty of interest in music and even own a guitar (acoustic, Christmas present) and keyboard. I took piano lessons for a while and have a guitar learning book AND cd-rom. Plus my boyfriend is pretty much a guitarsexual so he could teach me if I let him. I guess I am just too unmotivated or something. Or too afraid to try because I rather not fail.
Actress is something to add to failed wannabes. I was really into the idea of acting when I was very young to about 15. I took two drama classes but was too shy and probably didn't have the talent. I never fit in with the drama group so I just gave up on that idea.
I really don't know what I'm going on about. I guess I just wish I could do so much but don't really have the drive to even try any of it. I suck.

I can't read shit anymore

I checked out the book "An Abundance of Katherines" by that John Green dude yesterday. I didn't really watch many of the YouTube videos (vlogbrothers for those of you who don't know) but I do watch 5AG and some others and have heard him and his books mentioned a few times. So yeah. I checked it out at the library. I finished it about 5 minutes ago and I have to say it was pretty good.
See, I'm not necessarily much of a book reader (which may explain my limited vocabulary) and my attention span normally doesn't allow for me to stay concentrated on reading for very long (especially when I am stressed about something... *coughineedafuckingjobcough*). This leads to starting books and never finishing. Or the best: starting a book, then starting that book again, then starting that book again.. aka, retrying to read the same book but never getting even half way through.
But it does kind of suck because the few times I get through a book without distractions I really enjoy it. And sometimes I go through these stages of just wanting to READ READ READ... but then go months-a YEAR without reading a single page of a real book. Ah ha. I'm probably just not reading the right stuff.
Anyways. This Katherines thing was very interesting to me and I don't know what it was that captured me. I was like those bookworms you hear that rave about being sucked into a novel and forgetting about the world around them. I probably could have read it in the middle of a busy mall and not notice anyone, and that's saying something. I'm the type of person who can't be around a group of strangers without getting self conscious and feeling like the world is judging me. I'm a nervous wreck in the world! Oh shit, I'm rambling.

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I have a new video up called "We're Cool Like Dat!". It seems to not be generally accepted by my audience but whatever. [EDIT: ok, maybe just not accepted by SOME.] I had fun making it with Lindsay nonetheless and I find it funny myself. I don't commonly find my own videos funny so this is rare. Why are these people trying to ruin that for me? Oh and Lindsay uploaded this "behind the scenes" type of video. Something that happened when we were just finishing up our last shot. She called it "Teenage Boys". Yeah, go watch if you wanna.

I was reading some more about Jim Jones (the cult leader, not the rapper) and about Michael Travesser and all these other lame-os. It's very interesting stuff to me. You know, cults and religions (which some may say are interchangeable words). It's interesting also how my view of religion has definitely changed in the last year or two-ish. But I won't go there because it really doesn't concern anyone else. But I'm about to watch "The End of the World Cult." on youtube, uploaded in 5 parts...

Subscription update: K80blog. I've finally subscribed. The recent "I got robbed" video along with her "Why I'm Not in the YouTube Partners Program!" are the things that really caught my attention.

Rum nougat

I love See's Rum Nougats. OMG wonderful.

Charliiiiie

I posted TWO videos today. Both are from the same day. It was the day after Jen and Johnathan's wedding and it was with Lindsay and Amanda. I hadn't gotten around to editing them until today. See, that reminder yesterday actually WORKED! Whoaness!
So it was dark so they might be kind of hard to see but I DON'T CARE! I had fun.

11:11 PM, getting ready to sleep

It's only 11:11 PM (early for me) and I'm planning on being in bed before midnight. Weird ahh! But I just need to wake up earlier. Well, "need" to. I don't REALLY have to but I want to. I keep waking up in the about 10:30-11:30 range and I don't like that. It makes the day go too fast!
I cleaned my room today. It was getting pretty bad. I even went through my closet and some drawers and organized a little better. I like feeling organized, nice feeling.
Oh and as for the yoga dvd thing I mentioned a while back, Isaac got me one. It's a good DVD so far. It's some beginners thing but it's basically what we did in class (and some stuff a little different). It has a whole bunch of stuff on it so I've hardly even started trying it all. I think I will do some tomorrow morning. Thanks again Isaac!
Speaking of Isaac, our one year together is in a month (June 1st). One year is a short time really, but it's still a good chunk of time to spend with someone. It has been great!! I LOVE YOU ISAAC!
I want to make music videos to copyrighted music like I used to do a lot. The only problem is that there are a couple I have had for a while and still haven't edited. I don't know WHY but something about the fact that it was with friends and that they are expecting me to make it is kind of sucking the fun out of it. If I film something myself, I will have it done and edited the same day. I really have no idea why that is. Also, the more I procrastinate the more I FORGET to do it. Oh poo! I will try to remember tomorrow.
REMEMBER MELODY!
Maybe that will remind me, if I come back to my own blog tomorrow.