I have chronic writer's block. I think I might have been born with it. It really does suck. In school we would be given an assignment to write a short essay or story about something. I would just sit there trying to think of something and.... the result was nothing. I would look around the room and notice that every other person would already have a page written and there I was with a blank page (well, minus the little doodles on the side). By the time I would get something written it would be late and not even any good. The thing is, this would be fine if I had NO interest in writing. The problem is... I do.
I remember when I was younger I would get out paper and just sit there trying to think of some epic story to write. I would end up putting away the blank paper and pencil soon after. And then for years I would write some stupid homemade "newsletter" for my friends. The thing this newsletter lacked was news. I recently found a couple of those old newsletters and most of the "articles" were me asking people to help me write stuff for it (which, btw, no one EVER did within my 3-4 years of trying this out).
Wannabe writer could be a term for what I am but I think that even "wannabe writers" write better than I do. I know I'm a wannabe artist though. I have all of the painting supplies and the interest in painting but when it comes to actually painting... it hardly ever works out with me. I must admit, some stuff isn't HORRIBLE, but I really am a little embarrassed. Maybe I'm just a critic.
What else am I a wannabe of? Well there is a musician or singer. I can NOT sing (seriously, just trust me on this one) so I am left with musician. But.. I seem to even have a problem tapping my foot to a beat. I have plenty of interest in music and even own a guitar (acoustic, Christmas present) and keyboard. I took piano lessons for a while and have a guitar learning book AND cd-rom. Plus my boyfriend is pretty much a guitarsexual so he could teach me if I let him. I guess I am just too unmotivated or something. Or too afraid to try because I rather not fail.
Actress is something to add to failed wannabes. I was really into the idea of acting when I was very young to about 15. I took two drama classes but was too shy and probably didn't have the talent. I never fit in with the drama group so I just gave up on that idea.
I really don't know what I'm going on about. I guess I just wish I could do so much but don't really have the drive to even try any of it. I suck.